Smiling used to be easy enough
when did it become such a chore?
living never used to hurt this much
never used to wonder what i'm living for
I used to dream and awake refreshed
I never had any fear of sleep
never used to have such vivid nightmares
that make me wake in fear and weep
I don't recall being so confused
and can't remember being so cruel
i've come so far from that poor helpless child
the other kids would bully at school
I used to be honourable and proud
had a purpose and many good friends
but I let things slip and it all fell apart
now i'm doomed to watch as it ends
Here I am looking back at it all
looking for my li
How could things go so wrong so quick
A year ago was love, happiness and companionship
Now nothing
A Year ago was a awesome day
A day full of friends and joviality
Now it is depression and Feeling So alone
I try each day to forget
To not feel so low
To find the bear and regrow
To have my strength back
How come she still holds the power
Why do i miss her
Why do i still want her
She caused such pain but i cant help but forgive
Forever being forced to not forget
From the start it seemed amazing
Then it ended with me caring for her more
Am I to blame
Am I to fault
One day i will be strong again
One day i will be free
Just w